a very random entry tonite.

feeling so depress now.

firstly obviously cause im sick.

its been weeks, and i tried everything..

from medicine (from msia and also bought from uk) to all kinds of funny methods including salt water, sour plum, orange juice, lemon juice, honey, vicks, traditional medicine. al kinds really.

and why is it still not heal?

im really trying so hard you know..drinking so much of water each day..

and avoiding all my favourite food and drinks.

yes i love biscuits, milo, chocolate drink or coffee.

im willing to avoid all these.

i even avoid eating chicken and eggs.

now, even fish.

sometimes im thinkin is it because God wants me to take over some of my dog's pain.

i've not mentioned anythin in my blog about that yet.

one of my dogs is currently suffering from cancer.

my parents bring her to the vet, and the vet says there's nothing can be done.

it all depends on my dog's will to live now.

im glad that she's still been eating.

and honestly, if i could, i really dont mind doing anythin to reduce her pain.

she's been a real good dog and a good fren of mine.

i dont know what would happen to me if something bad happen to her.

if anyone sees this, please pray for her.

also,

im feeling really depress cause my parents is so worry bout me.

i din wan to tell them that im sick, but i think my bro must have told them.

the reason for not telling them is obvious. i dont want them to be worry.

i can hear it from their voice when they talk to me, and it made me cry.

im the kind that dont really fall sick, not to say im strong but i really dont get sick easily.

and each time im sick, it would be really serious, like now.

im so sorry dad and mum,

to make you all worry.

im doing everything i can to heal myself.

now is really not a good time for me to fall sick.

i have finals soon.

i have to be strong, so that my parents wont worry.

also, i need to be strong for my dog.

i want her to know that i will not give up on her no matter what.

and i hope she dont as well.

dear clement, dear housemates, dear darling in aussie, dear batchmates,

and to everyone who cared for me,

im really thankful for everything.

for the care, for the medicine, for the traditional recipe of medicine.

thank you.

goodnite.